I really love to write. I don’t always have the time for it, but every time I’m able to sit downpour long enough to fall into a story, I’m swept away. I love to tell the stories and create the characters. I have hundreds of story ideas. But realistically? I zero manuscripts that are truly completed and ready for query. Sure – I’ve finished first drafts on many! But I can’t seem to get past that point.
For those who check-in on my monthly wrap ups, I have a section to share writing updates. Since my crit partner and I have started to make it a regular thing, I am at least writing. But Fate is not a new story. In fact, I’ve been writing, re-writing, and evolving it since 1999.
Yeah, that’s not a typo. I’ve re-written this story at least half a dozen times, including three times from beginning to end. I’ve gotten rid of characters and added new ones. I think in this draft, I found a place to add an old one back? I feel like each iteration of the story tells me something new about the characters and the world, so to me, they all have value. But every time I finish and go back to edit again… I find myself re-writing the story again.
Sometimes I wonder if this is a “me” problem or if other people find themselves stuck in a re-writing cycle. Surely I’m not the only one so enamored of the writing process that I find myself stuck in the storytelling? Sometimes I wonder if it’s a psychological thing – fear of failure if I query or needing to maintain control over my world that keeps me from looking at a draft and saying “there’s nothing more I can do. It’s ready.” It never feels ready.
Do any other writers run into this conundrum?